Last Saturday, I was driving to a small town to see a light parade.
Around six I jumped in the car and went off to this town.
So about twenty minutes later, when I was driving at 120km/h on the highway,
I saw the sun in my mirror, and on the road, the shadows and golden shades replaced each other over and over again.
So as I was heading West, with the sun in my mirror, I somehow enjoyed the ride.
I was driving through shadows and then the shadows ended and a golden light was shining upon the road. It was wonderful, this golden warm sun enlighting your route as you are continuing your way ….
I love it ! It was truly a lovely feeling and I wish I could feel this more often 🙂
27 Sept 2015
PS: Sorry this article sucks (poor quality xD)
I write you now, still feeling this weird feeling.
It is like an energy flowing to me, but I feel like the future is changing somehow. And I don’t know why? For some reason, the future is changing.
And I feel it in my body. It is coming from my spine / my back and in my shoulders like a force is gently trying to push them down-backwards.
I also got an idea about key (I have a small collection of them) and I got the image of a key that fitted a certain lock (just a keyhole in the ground/wall/…) and when unlocked some big goldenbrown cupper gears started to rotate and I got the feeling that the future was changing.
This all happened about 10 minutes ago and now I smell the used incense form like two weeks ago.
I also had at that time the idea that if I would ever have a daughter (in any form but related to me) I had to give her a key at her birth and that key fits a certain lock which guards something. I have no idea about what that idea was going, but I had it at the same time of that special feeling.
Maybe it is because of that idea …
By having that idea in my mind … I maybe realize it on day … and leaving her something special behind …. and maybe “destiny” didn’t planned it in the future. But due of this it might added it to it and changed therefor the future. (Or maybe this is all bullshit xD and I just feel tired or something). But now when I deeply inhale I feel an impulse at my head and while exhaling I feel it in my neck.
Well weird thing, but yeah whatever you do, the future is unsure, so you can’t chance something that doesn’t exist yet. But I also party believe in an other theory about that.
Write you soon
22 Sept 2015
I was just done watching the “gangster squad” on tv when I took my glass of red wine and moved to my computer.
I opened youtube and put on a song and next I checked facebook and some sites.
Not much later when I was done with checking the sites and just scrolled through facebook; I heared the music and I stood up. I turned myself a quarter to right when I left my glass if red wine to the music. So with my left hand in the sky and pc still playing the soundtrack I felt something unusual. Like I just wanted to do a toast on this music (around the 18th minute).
The music was from one of my favorite movies that I saw when I was really youngh and I never forget the movie.
19 Sept 2015
This is a small note in my last blogpost:
I changed my mind. I dont want to head East anymore. Today I had to travel from work to some place with the company car and it remembered me the things that could happen when you travel by car.
First the car didnt started (battery drained), then I had to get out of Brussels without knowing how and a not working gps. Then heavy rain when driving on the highway. A lot of accidents and disruptes routes. It was a hell to get to that place. The way back was also a pest. A lot of traffic jams *sigh*
But I m happy that I m home now 🙂
Write you soon
17 Sept 2015
Somewhere at the first weekend of September, right before I started at my new job, I was driving my car and was wondering what I should do during the weekends when I would be working. And one of the ideas was to jump in my car and just head East as far I could get.
And I never realised. But if you live in the center of Europe, you have a lot of options and directions to travel.
I live in Belgium and I can be in a couple of hours in the UK or in France or Germany ! So think about the posibilities if you for example drive like 12 hours. That would be more than 1.000 km (simple 10h x 100 km/h) and in birthsfly you could be in most of the european countries if you wish to. Like Poland, Norway, Croatia, Italy, Spain etc.
I never really realised (even yet now) but when you have these possibilities … you can call yourself lucky.
I dont think it is a good idea just to drive 12h nonstop. But never realized it. And even now I only realize it for a small part.
Write you soon !
16 Sept 2015
At this moment I’m experiencing anger. A heavy form of anger, and I’m keeping it guarded in myself and am collecting it inside myself in order to prevent hurting people. However it is building up, and increasing. And the anger inside me is feeling like an hurricane of wind and fire. Twisting inside myself, growing in strenght as I speak. With each turn of the hurricane, it grows strength. No external factors added, because I’m just alone in my room. (But it goes about something external … )
I’m also listening to “Sanctuary!” a song of the Disney’s Hunchback of Notre Dame. And I feel the hurricane razing inside me. And even more, like a dark energy is flowing out my body (out my spine), I feel the hurricane more razing, above my spine, sending all dark energy out of my body into the air. As the songs continues my feelings keep changing but I still feel the anger.
The anger inside me is just because the un-luck I have in a certain part of my life. And when I see reality, I feel sad. And today I was feeling sad about this life-part (about 4 hours ago) but now it translated it from sadness to anger. Anger to no-one in special. But just about my un-luck in this certain topic. I’m still trying to process it, I know the hardest part is like a month ago, but there is a stream of new information. And mostly I can be happy with this information, but today it wasn’t the case 😦 Like 4 hours ago I was sad, I had tears in my eyes but didn’t cry and about 15min ago I cried. And then it changed into anger … and now I’m back to being sad-ish again.
I will soon go to bed, and I hope sleeping will help me to forget it all…
Hope to write you more when I’m in a better mood
27 Aug 2015
In the afternoon of 23th August 2015, when I was listening to an LP of film-music (The greatest war themes) and I was very excited when listening at the music. For the fun I was also playing with my potter wand xD. Maybe weird to explain but at some moments I just could spread my arms wide open and feel a tornado( or vortex but it’s imaginary view looked more like a tornado) above me. Like it was collecting energy from the air and channelling it to me. Maybe it was just some fantasy but it felt great and powerful :D. Okay and I was also doing some harry_potter spells with my wand just for fun xD.
Later that day, during the night, I was laying in bed with one hand above my head and I was feeling like “hmm I should hold my wand in that hand”, I don’t know why I felt like that … but yeah I did it xD. I don’t remember if I slept the whole night like that. But when I woke up, I notice that the wand was on the table next to my bed (pointing towards my legs but with the handle away from me) and I also noticed that my smartphone was next to me. I really thought that I have put that phone also on the table, but I guess I didn’t 😛
24 Aug 2015